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Saturday, March 29, 2014

Secretly For You

Characters

Kyuhyun (Super Junior) , You

Description

Being a maid at famous idol group dorm are not that easy especially must finish all the work and gone before all of them back to the dorm. One ecounter lead to falling in love at the first sight between Kyuhyun and you...

“Oah! Who are you?! Wae you here inside our dorm?!” Shout all the suju members shocking when see a young girl inside their dorm. “Aaa!” I shout shocking see all the Suju members that already back from their schedule. “I’m...I’m... I’m just here as your guys maid.. My mom are your guys maid at here before but because of her health she need to rest for a temporary. I will be a maid start from today... Actually all the work must be done before you guys back. But... because I’m still new in this work, it’s take lot of time for me to finish it all... Mianhae!” I explain from A-Z to all of them and bowing nonstop.
Ahh wae suddenly I remember about that... It’s been almost 2 weeks since that incident happen. Now I still be the famous idol group super junior maid. Although like that we never bump into each other since that day because I follow the rules to finish all the work before the members back.
Today just same like the others day. I hurriedly tried to finish the works. “I need to finnish folding all  the clothes before  all oppa are back from they schedule” Mumbling while folding the clothes. Suddenly I heard the door bell being press. I’m stop doing my work and going closely to the door and I saw Kyuhyun already stood infront the door waiting for someone to open it.
“What the.... It’s Cho Kyuhyun! Wae he back so early today.. I still didn’t finish my work.. Ottoke! Ottoke! And and... wae he didn’t just open the door? He also know the code..” I keep mumbling again until forget to open the door. After heard another round of bell being press I hurriedly come to my sense and just open it.
He stood in front me while keep looking at me closely. “Wae you so slow to open it?” Kyuhyun asking me while still looking at me closely. When I just wanna answer his question, he suddenly collapsed on top of me and fall asleep. “Urghh... the smell... He must be drinking... Kyuhyun.. Yaa Cho Kyuhyun..” I trying to wake him up. But that just useless.. Trying to move him off me, I noticed his soft face.. His lips.. I desperately wanna hugging him and tell him that I love him.. love him since our eyes meet when we first meet before. But..but who am I? I’m just a maid, and it’s not like he will find something interesting on me or even consider to liking me in the first place.
“Cho Kyuhyun get up!” I tried to wake him for the last time. But he still didn’t move and just make me give up to tried waking him up because I know it’s totally useless. He’s drunk after all.. I struggled and crawled out from underneath him. Grabbing Kyuhyun hand, I pulled him back until to his room then slowly put him on his bed. I was already tired from pulled him and breath heavily. Who knew that a skinny looking namja like him would be this heavy.. After my breathing turn normal, I keep looking at him and my hand unnoticed reached for his face and stroked his soft skin. My heart beating fastly until I feel it wanna jumping out from my chest.

I closed my eyes and tried to back to into reality. I stood up slowly and carefully not to disturb Kyuhyun that sleeping. The moment I turned my back to him, he suddenly grabbed my hand and looked at me. “Stay..” Kyuhyun said while his hand still didn’t let go of my hand. “I have to finish folding all the clothes Kyuhyun.. Please just get some rest or you get sick.” He then still keep looking at me with his lonely eyes and said “Please..” The maknae that not always saying please said like that at me?  That’s mean he being serious.. I couldn’t said no but I still need to said no. “No..Just rest nae.” I said while make him stop holding my hand.
He then pulling me to him and put his arm around me. I can’t think anything and just freeze in his embraced.. He was so close that his hot breath warmed my face. My heart beating very fast like I run the marathon. Suddenly, he smashed his soft temp lips into mine and forcingly kissed me. “My my first...kiss...” I mumbling in the kissing while tried my best to push him away but he was much stronger than me. He kissed me more deeply and make me felt the butterflies wanting to burst out from me.
After sometime, he stop from kissing me and he keep looking at me with that same lonely look again. But this time bit different. I dunno what is it but it’s sure different. “Kyuhyun...” I called his name. “Sshh” He said while his point finger reached my lips. “I think it’s the time to tell you something..” He said and his eyes looked at me seriously.
“You know what...Actually I kinda like you.. No no not kinda like but really like..” He said again while his face suddenly blushed. “Huh?” With blur face I keep looking at him. “Ah! Ah! What am I talking about! Well...well.. you know, like~ love..” Kyuhyun slowly said it and make me shocked. Am I dreaming? Did he said love? I keep asking myself.. “You you.. ehem... You gotta love me or I will make your life suffer as long you being a maid.” Kyuhyun start bluffing out and that just make me giggles. “What?! I said it seriously not as a joke” He start to grumble.
“You should know that I love you. Secretly for you~” I whisper at him and after heard that, he change 180 degree and stop grumble then he kissed me again while I reply his kissing. His sweet lips crushed mine and I can feel his love toward me. So start from that moment we promised to stay to each other and forever love each other.
END


Friday, March 28, 2014

Will Update

This blog is still new from me. Hope you guys the readers will enjoying all my works and also don't forget to leave a comment. No silence readers ne T.T ... I will update this blog with more fanfics that write by me when I have a time. I'm in the middle writing new fanfics now n_n

ps: sorry for bad grammar on my fanfics/post. Since English are not my first language.. >< I try hard to improving my grammar. huuu~

It's Complicated Ending


At night, in the house. Jinnie while relaxing herself on the sofa, she can't stop thinking about that Kibum. It’s just like she tried to focus her mind just to remember about something that had to do with him. “I’m totally sure that I meet him somewhere.. But I really don’t remember it..Aish!” When Jinnie keep mumbling alone about that, Jonghyun suddenly sit beside her and making her surprise because of that. “Yaa! Oppa what are you doing here? Why don’t you just stay away from me..” She start to complain. “You don’t really wanna using that television. Just keep mumbling by yourself. So I just sit here to watch a show.” Jonghyun said. “Aish... oppa!” Jinnie shout. Suddenly Jonghyun look toward Jinnie and going closer to her to teasing her. Since their still a little kid, he like to tease her like that. Usually she just fine with it and just relax but after what happening that morning, Jinnie can’t act like before or look at Jonghyun like before anymore. She also dunno what’s wrong with her. Jinnie then hurriedly get up and just run into her room leaving Jonghyun behind that blankly watching her from far “What’s wrong with me?! Maybe I already crazy!” Jinnie heart screaming.

On the next day. Jinnie still like that. Always trying to avoiding Jonghyun. At the resting bench that below the cherry tree that far from class and students. Jinnie blankly sit on it while thinking about something. “Annyeong Jinnie. Why being that blank? Thinking about something important?” Asking someone that making her mind back to the real world. “Oh.. Hey Kibum~” She then hurriedly fixes her mind to focus on the real world back while trying to smile toward Kibum. “I never imagine that we in the same class.” Said Kibum with warm smile and politely sit beside her. “His smile... This warm smile... I did saw him somewhere... But till now I can’t remember it.” Jinnie keep forcing her slow mind to remember it. Even a slight memory about it can give great help for her.

After a moment... “Oah! You! Kibum that always hang out with me from elementary school! But then we separate because you need to follow your parent moving out!” Jinnie get up and excitedly point out toward him. “Tsk~ You really take a lot of time to remember me. I did remember you and can know it’s you from the first time I saw you babo.” Answer Kibum “Omonaaaa! Kibum I really miss you! Never thought that you will be in front of me someday!” She then hugging him tightly. On that time she never know that her action with Kibum are being watch by someone from far. That person are Jonghyun. “Huh! Why Jinnie hugging that namja? She never hug someone carelessly especially a namja.. Aish!” Jonghyun mumbling from far with his jealousy glare. After that he just walks away from that scene.

“Kibum if you already recognize me, wae you never said bout it?” Jinnie ask. “It’s because I want you to recognize me too. I’m not that crazy enough to just said hey it’s me Kibum your friend!~ when you still can’t recognizing me.” He said. “Hahaha! You never change Kibum! Hmm~ How about today we hang out together at mall? We have lot things to catch up” She said while holding Kibum hand. “Hang out? Sure. It’s been a while since I’m shopping. So yeah let’s hang out together while shopping!” He said with wide smile. Maybe thinking about the shopping thinggy. Of course for all days today Jinnie just keep hang out with Kibum even in the class. 

After school end. Jinnie then hurriedly going back home and getting ready to going out with Kibum at mall. When she already getting ready and happily walks off to the door. Jonghyun then sudden appear out of nowhere and asking her where she going. “Going out” Without Jonghyun be able to said his next words, Jinnie already run off. “Yaa! Hmm...she wear prettily must be going out with that namja. Aish! Just wae my head keep busily think about that! It’s her life, she can go dating with anyone that she like! I’m just her oppa..” Mumbling Jonghyun alone.

At the mall Kibum and Jinnie enjoying themselves with each other since it’s been long time both of them being together. If with Kibum of course his priority are shopping beside chatting about lot of stuff with Jinnie. Been a years both of them lost contact and for Jinnie, Kibum look more handsome and his shopping hobbies are become extreme now since he already grown up namja. Both of them become more close than before. Almost every weekend they will hang out together. Even at school he will hang out with her and Hyowook. Without Jinnie realize it, the closeness between her and Kibum making Jonghyun anxious.

On the night, Jinnie dunno why she felt really tired and then fall asleep on the couch. Jonghyun just got home from hang out with Taemin at that time. He then saw Jinnie sleeping soundly on the couch. Then without he even realize it, he walks toward her. 
“Ahh...Jinnie look so beautiful when she sleep. With that purple pajama make her look cute too.” He said while keep staring toward her that still sleeping. “Jinnie ah...Wae you making oppa feels something that I never feel before.. You are different from other yeoja..” Said Jonghyun little heart and he then unconsciously kisses her. After he realize about what he’s doing he then start to blaming himself and running off into his bedroom. “I’m crazy already! Wae did I kiss her? My own saeng! Am I fall in love with her? No! This is wrong! She’s my saeng!” Jonghyun heart screams.

One day, when Jinnie going into Jonghyun room to ask him something, she then saw him that half naked walks out from the bathroom. That shocking scene make her screams her lung out and hurriedly close the room door. “Urgh! Wae? Wae?! That feelings come again after long time.. Crazy!” She knocked her head.

Because of that incident, Jinnie keep avoiding Jonghyun. While Jonghyun keep stalking Jinnie even when she hang out with Kibum. He always secretly keep watching over her from far. Since Jinnie keep acting weirdly when see him even at house, that making him keep wondering about it. So he decide to just asking her directly. He then pull Jinnie into his room to ask about that.

“Oppa what are you doing?! Why you pulling me?!” Jinnie getting shocked by Jonghyun act as Jonghyun push her toward the wall and look straight into her eyes. Jinnie feelings getting more strong and it’s look like that she can’t surpress her feeling anymore. “Opp...oppa...” “Sshh..” Jonghyun then put his point finger at her lips. “Listen what I’m gonna said first. Wae this day, you kinda avoiding me?” He asking with serious expression. “Avoiding you? I I’m not...” Jinnie then look down. “And wae you always hang out with that namja? You love him?” Jonghyun ask again. Love?! When Jonghyun said that love words, Jinnie then got sudden surprise by that words. Now she already understand wae her heart feels like that this day. It’s love! The feelings that she tried to surpress it are being called as LOVE. “Impossible I in love with my oppa! It’s so wrong!!” Her heart screaming.

“There nothing between me and Kibum. We just a bestfriend. We know each other since elementary school..” Without her realize it. She already explain it all to Jonghyun. She don’t even know just wae she need to explain everything.. “Is it true?” Jonghyun asking again to confirm it. “It is” She reply it shortly. Suddenly she felt someone soft lips bump into her lips. When she look at it, it was Jonghyun lips. Her oppa lips! Jonghyun kisses her. Jinnie really getting shocked by that action and hurriedly push him. “What with all this about oppa?!” She start to sobbing. “I’m sorry...I also dunno what’s wrong with me.. This feelings already exist for such a long time ago. I tried to stop this feelings.. Usually I can bear it but not today... Jinnie, saranghae.. I know it’s wrong but..” Jonghyun explain everything and that’s make Jinnie more surprise by that. It’s not only her feel like that. Jonghyun also feel the same! See his sorrowful, pain expression making her wanna love him more and more. She know it’s wrong. Totally wrong. But she already decide that she dont wanna thinking about that anymore. She just wanna love him more than oppa. Jinnie then cupped Jonghyun face and kisses him. He kinda shocked with her blunt action, but he still reply her kiss.

After a moment with the kissing, Jinnie stop it and stare at Jonghyun. “Oppa...I never know we ending like this. Actually I’m avoiding you because I love you.. I don’t want this feelings become strong like right now. Because it’s wrong..” Jonghyun then pull her closely to him and hug her tightly. “Lets don’t care about that anymore. I love you and you love me. That was important more than anything. We can overcome all the obstacle that will come toward us.” He said. Jinnie start to talk about their eomma reaction if she know that. And without she even finish talk about it, she already start sobbing again.

“We need to told her everything. If she can’t accept it, we just go faraway from here. We build our own world that no one know about us.” Jonghyun said what he think about with his serious tone. Without Jinnie realize it, she also agree with it. Maybe because she really love him so everything he said she just agree to it. On the next day, both of them agree to telling their eomma about it. Jinnie really scared thinking about what will happen later. But because Jonghyun always beside her, she didn’t feel that scared anymore. Since it’s they eomma resting day so she just resting while drink a coffee. Both of them slowly walks toward her. “Eomma, we want to tell you something.” Jonghyun start the conversation first. “What is it? Wae Jinnie keep hiding behind you?” They eomma asking while look at Jinnie weird acts. Jonghyun then hold they eomma hand and slowly start to talk about it. “Eomma..hope you can accept what I’m going to says..Me and Jinnie love each other so much. We decide to be together forever. Hope you accept it eomma.” Jonghyun confess. After they eomma listen to that shocking confession, her warm expression turn into mad and shocking expression. “WHAT?! Jonghyun are you crazy?! Both of you are sibling! This is totally wrong!” They eomma start to shout with shocking tone. “But eomma...” Before Jinnie finish her words, they eomma already cut it with disagree. Jinnie still dont wanna to give up to make they eomma listen to what she wanna said. Then she said it again hoping that they eomma will at least listen to her. “Eomma I know it’s wrong. But I really love Jonghyun oppa and I can’t live without him..Omma jebal...” Jinnie kneeling in front of they eomma while crying hard. “Eomma please give us your approval. I really love her.” Jonghyun then also kneeling beside Jinnie.

With her heart that break apart they eomma keep looking at them with teary eyes. “Wae must it happpen like this between both of you.. Wae?! Looks like both of you really love each other.. I know I can’t even stopping both of you since its already turn like this.. Maybe today is the time I should tell both of you about something.” They eomma said and then pull Jinnie and Jonghyun to get up. After that they eomma hold Jinnie hand and look into her eyes. “Actually Jinnie ah... Jonghyun is not your blood relate oppa..He’s your adopt oppa.” Cries hard after telling everything about Jonghyun past. After listen to all that , Jinnie and Jonghyun just stand still dunno how to react into it. It’s really shocking fact for them. “What’s all with this fact eomma?! No! I mean with this lies eomma?! How can Jonghyun oppa not my real oppa?!” Jinnie look into they eomma eyes and then into Jonghyun eyes. It can be seen that Jinnie totally lost in all this mess. “What’s all with this bullshit eomma?! I’m not your son?!” Jonghyun start to cried as he getting totally shocked by that.

“No no..Jonghyun you still my son. Jonghyun, Jinnie mianhae.. Eomma shouldn’t keep this secret. But what can I do.. I don’t want both of you to keep comparing with each other if both of you know that you guys not a blood relate siblings. You guys will grown up as stranger if know that..I don’t want it to happen.. Since both of you told me that both of your love each other and living together, I don’t have any other choice except for telling the truth.. mianhae..” They eomma hold both of them hand and cried while look into Jonghyun and Jinnie eyes.

Jinnie still shocked by that. But behind this secret its also have the good sides too. Jonghyun then tried to accept all that and slowly hugging they eomma. “Even tho eomma not my real eomma. I still assume eomma as my eomma forever. I love you eomma..All of us are family forever. That will never change.” Jonghyun smile as he still hugging they eomma. Jinnie nod sign agree and with smile, she hug Jonghyun and they eomma together.

After all those tears and confusion slowly fades away.. “Eomma since me and Jinnie not the blood relate siblings. Then both of us can be together right? Can eomma approve our relationship?” Jonghyun sudden asking. Jinnie then stare at her eomma wanna listen what they eomma will said. Of course she hoping for a good result with it. “Hmm...Eomma approve. I know you so well Jonghyun. I know you will make her happy and can take a good care of her forever.” They eomma smile then hug both of them together. “Eomma saranghae!” Jinnie and Jonghyun shout with happy tone and all of them keep hugging each other.

It's Complicated Part 1

Characters
Jonghyun, Kibum/Key (Shinee) , OC

Description

 What?! She fall in love with her own oppa?! How that can be happening? Jinnie also dunno why it's turn out like that. It's so wrong to fall in love with own blood sibling. But there are something that they dunno about. And It's really complicated!



That morning as usual, Jinnie eomma will prepare the breakfast and Jinnie duty like always are to wake someone up that really lazy to wake up in the morning and someone that also really annoying. She hate him! “Jinnie, go wake Jonghyun up.” Ask her eomma while busy preparing the breakfast. Yes, he’s are Jinnie oppa.. J-O-N-G-H-Y-U-N.. He’s the person that always make her life hard. “I hate him!” Jinnie said while going upstairs. Sometimes she dunno wae..just wae he’s her oppa.. Since her omma was a single mother because her parent already divorce and her appa getting married with other  yeoja, so then her eomma always getting back home late because of work. Her rank kinda high at her workplace and really important. So, sometimes for a week she not at home because of her work and she always going outside the region for work.  Jinnie just getting tension because everyday she always see her oppa face.. At home his face, at school also his face. Because both of them in the same school..

“Ahh...so lazy to wake him up..Like he can’t get up by himself. Dead already maybe since he’s still not wake up even tho sun already arise!” Jinnie grumbling until she reached her oppa door room. She then, start to knocking  Jonghyun door room loudly. The sound of Jinnie knocking can be heard in all corners of the house. “Yaa! Oppa!! Wake up! Time for breakfast already!” After Jinnie keep calling for Jonghyun, there still no answer from him.. Then Jinnie just keep knocking while shouting calling for him. Because she was too mad, Jinnie then said something that she never said at him. “Yaa! Is that hard to wake up? Why just don’t you go to hell! Just go die! Easy then!”

Suddenly Jonghyun room door being open..He then pulling Jinnie inside his room and push her at wall. Jinnie just getting shocked with that situation. And without she even realize it, her eyes set on Jonghyun that didn’t even wear his clothes. The abs.... “Wah!! It’s the first time I think my oppa are perfect namja..” Jinnie hurriedly looking at other direction while her heart keep saying that. She can’t even look at her oppa again since it’s just too sudden with that kinda situation. While Jonghyun keep looking at her. “Did he heard what I’m saying earlier? It’s kinda harsh after all... Did he getting mad?” Those thought keep lingering around Jinnie head.

“Yaa Jinnie, what’s wrong with you shouting in the morning?” Asking  Jonghyun stare at Jinnie while his face are going closely to her. At that moment, Jinnie can felt her own heart start to beating fast. In her lifetime, she never feel something like that. What happen to her? “Err...oppa, eomma asking me to call you take your breakfast!” Jinnie then hurriedly push Jonghyun and run away from his room. After a moment, Jonghyun walks toward the kitchen while his eyes looking around like searching for something. “Where eomma?” He ask. “Eomma already going work” On that moment, Jinnie really wanna run off somewhere and stay away from him. She don’t know why, she felt like that. She didn’t even make something that can make her being point over as a guilty girl or something.

At the school, when Jinnie arrive and walks alone.. Suddenly someone bump into her and both of them falling down. That namja then get up and helping Jinnie to get up. “I’m sorry! I’m so sorry!” Said that namja while bowing toward her show how he really sorry for what happen. Because that namja already said sorry, Jinnie then just forgive him. It’s much better rather than make it as a big issues. “It’s okay. Nothing big happen after all.” She said with smile. “Kamsamnida for accepting my apologize. I go first then.”Said that namja and then just walks off somewhere. “Hmm...why did I felt that I kinda seem him before from somewhere...I wonder...” Jinnie mumbling alone while her eyes still fixes toward where that namja walks.

When on the break time, all the student run off from class and going somewhere to chill their mind and also to fills their hungry stomach. Cafeteria, field the most usual place for them. At cafeteria... “Jinnie, don’t wanna eat?” Asking Hyowook her friend. “I don’t want... Not really hungry...” Actually she don’t have any appetite for today since because of that thing happen between her and Jonghyun. She can’t stop thinking about it. While Jinnie mind still thinking bout that things, Hyowook then calling for someone to joining them grab a lunch together. “Taemin here!” Calling Hyowook. “Oh no! She calling for Taemin! Look like I need to face Jonghyun oppa..” Jinnie heart screaming. Taemin and Jonghyun are best friend so both of them always stick together . Taemin also Jinnie and Hyowook friend.

Taemin then waving from far when he see Hyowook and Jinnie. So then Taemin and Jonghyun walks toward both of them. The calm cafeteria start to become chaos with girls voice that screaming around following Taemin and Jonghyun. Both of them then sit facing Hyowook and Jinnie. “Urghh. So noisy..” Jinnie mumbling. All these girl screaming because they saw Taemin and Jonghyun. Both of them are popular namja at this school. “Jonghyun oppa, can you hug me? Please only once..” One girl that dunno from where sudden appear and asking for hug. “Err...sure” Jonghyun said then slowly hug that girl. “Hate it! I don’t like being around him! It’s not that he’s a famous idol like Shinee. Only his name that are same..I dunno wae I become jealous when see he’s hugging that damn girl!” Jinnie heart start to rant.

Jinnie sudden get up. “Hyowook, Taemin, I need to go. I had something that I need to settle. Enjoyed your guys break time.” Jinnie then walks away from that chaos place. Inside the toilet, Jinnie then washed her face and for a moment she just keep staring at the mirror with her annoyed expression. “What a use to have an oppa? Really suck got famous oppa..” After she let out all her annoying inside the toilet then she walks out. Again for second time today, she bump into the same person again. This time it’s her fault. Jinnie and that namja get up together. “Mianhae...This time it’s my fault..” “It’s okay. Err are you alright? Got bruise?” That namja worriedly asking. “Anni...I’m fine. Thank for worrying. I need to go” Jinnie then with smile on her face just walks away. 

Break time over and class start like always. Miss Park then walks into the classroom where Jinnie and Hyowook been. “Okay students! Listen now!~ We have new transfer student. Hope you guys welcoming him okay?” Miss Park announce it with her warming smile. Jinnie then carefully look at that new student. “Ah! That namja...The namja that I bumped 2 time today..So he’s the new student? That’s why I never seen him here. But..I think I did see him somewhere before..” Jinnie mind start to think about it. “Annyeonghaseyo. I am Kibum. Nice to meet all of you. I am still new here, so I hope we can get to know more later and let’s be friend everyone.” That namja introduce himself then bowing. Miss Park then, ask Kibum to sit in front of Jinnie since that place are empty. Because Kibum sit are kinda near to Jinnie, so she secretly keep staring at him.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Holding On To Letting You Go…

Characters

OC, Sungmin (super junior), Siwon (super junior)

Description

It's about how a girl to keep trying move on just based on memories after the person that she love gone forever...

(this is base on truth stories..)

The wind blowing gently like it’s whisper something…The sunlight keep shine tell that it’s another day to move on again… I love the feelings when the wind blows toward me. Every time the breeze gently kisses my cheek I could feel you beside me, like you whispering at me that you love me.
 
It’s already been a few month Sungmin… Lee Sungmin.. A few month since you are gone. A few month since you walked away from me, like leaves decided to leave the tree forever. You left me to walk my days alone in this world. It was raining heavily that day. I was resting because I’m sick until my chatbox make some noise, waking me up. I looked up the screen, displaying Siwon picture. Ahh… it’s oppa…I though maybe like always we gonna chat with some random stuff again. But…
 
“My…my hyung…my hyung passed away..he.. he suicide...”, that still remain in my memories.. Speechless, shocked and trembling.. I can’t even do anything bout it just a tears that keep rolling down.. I’m too far from them.. The regret and guilty feelings start to appear.. Why..why I can’t be beside him when he need someone! Before the day he commit a suicide we still talking and why..why I didn’t notice the way he talk that a bit different?! Just why! I never forgive myself…never! At that time I hope it’s only a joke. But, no. It was not a joke…
That day…that night you go, Siwon oppa that most hurt..I know it from the way he talk… He really close to you…You guys are like a siblings… I am hurting but Siwon oppa hurting more than I am.. I keep screaming in my heart that night..Just why?! Why you leave us like this! You didn’t even wait for me..But it’s too late..he already left.. I keep believed in miracle. I believed miracle would happen to you. But sometimes, miracle does not happen to everyone. Sometimes miracle is too busy to be there. Miracle fails to shine on you… Yeah and now I didn’t believe in miracle anymore…
 
At there…at the hospital without me there because I’m too far to be there… Because I need to study aboard, I leave everything behind for a moment. Even tho like that you and Siwon will always here for me and never forget to talk with me. You always said you will wait for me until I graduate but now...At hospital, A moment later, doctor came out. “I’m sorry. We had done everything we could but God loves him more. I’m sorry”, he said. Siwon oppa started to cried.. No last word. No last smile. You were gone. Just like that, without saying anything…
 
“ This is must be joking. He can’t be dead. He promised me that He’ll always be here beside me..” Siwon oppa mumbling while kneeled down, with tears rolling down his face, surprised by the fact that you, his hyung had gone, forever… At the place I stay… It was still raining outside, as if the skies too mourned for your loss…
 
I sat on the bed. Keep crying nonstop and said this is must be a nightmare.. Please! Please! I want to wake up! I can’t take it anymore with this nightmare! It was sad to lose you. If only I knew, I would be telling you how much I loved you. If only I knew, I would told you what I really wanna do with you. if only I knew, I would throw away my stubbornness. But, nothing. I could do nothing now. When you were gone, I was gone too. Yes I’m alive here but my heart are died..It follow you go up there…
 
After a moment I look at my computer screen. Ah another notification..I wiped my tears and looked up. it written "The Last Letter From My Hyung" I gasp when I look at the tittle...I read all of it slowly and tried to not cried but when I read at... "This is for my Heeyeon Jjagi :) Jagiya~ how are you? I hope you will always fine, ne? :3 Jagiya~ mianhae, you must really hates me after this, ne? That's ok.. I understand~ ^^ ♥” My tears start to rolling down again…I keep crying…It’s pain…totally pain for me.. Why just why must you do this…I know you have a reason but why must use this way…. No one know.. My heart really broken into pieces and it can’t be attached together again… I read again with teary eyes and stop my sight at “PS : Jagiya! Don't eat ramen too often, ne! Not good for your healthy!” I laugh while still crying. Ah haha how come he still thinking bout that stuff and write it? Yeah I like to eating ramyeon but you always nagging me to stop eating it often.. After this who gonna nagging at me? Who gonna always said stop doing that and that? I will miss it all… I willing to listening you always keep nagging at me rather than after this you not beside me anymore…
 
After what happen that painful day for everyone, everything went back to its usual place, but it was not complete without you. Me… I no longer myself. I no longer the Heeyeon that I used to be. I was a different person. A real different person.
 
Everytime I miss you so much I will close my eyes and will think bout the memories we had together.. You such an innocent guy.. You slowly understand girls heart which is me. Deep in my heart, my love is just for you. You such a lovely person and cute the way you act. You kept blushed whenever I teasing you. You such a helpful person. You always here for me, rooting for me when I’m down...When I Deact my account, you also deact your account because your world wouldn’t be completed without me from what you said. You always mad at me because I keep eating ramyeon because you said it’s not good. When we go watching for the star, you point at the brightest star and say “The brightest star is you because you’re always make me smile”. We hugging each other when we was cold. I remember the day rain falling heavenly..I said to you I am so cold while shivers. You hug me without I even saying I need a hug..I feel so warm in your embrace..Then you put your jacket too at me because you worried I’m still cold. Gomawo jjagi..I never forget it.. We washing the dishes together while playing water. You even proposed me at the Han River. At my dream place. Ah yes bout our pinky promises...don't worried I promises you jjagi! Ahh…How I wish those time together with you can be replay again… you're in memories and always be in my heart Lee Sungmin.
 
The love that belongs to us.
I will love you all my life and when I die I will still love you through eternity and beyond.
If we meet again one day there, let’s not leave each other again.
 
I love the feeling when the wind blows.
Every time the breeze gently kisses my cheek I could feel you beside me, whispering that you love me.
 
I would be coming here, to the place that always have a wind that blows without know the meaning of tired to just to hear you whispered you loved me. You always hold the special place in my heart and in my life.I would love you till the day I ran out of stars and raindrops to be counted. I would miss you till the day the wind stops blowing. The day when the ocean turns into stones, is the day when I have erased you from my life. Just wait for me Lee Sungmin..

My love my kiss my heart
One love one kiss to my heart
Last love last Kiss last dream
The end..